reflection

"She's got a C-average which means she's either lazy or stupid. I can work with either. Frankly, stupid's sometimes easier. I can scare the stupid out of you, but lazy runs deep."

- Paris Geller

NaNaNa

Why, why, why does half a serving of kimchi flavoured instant-ramen contain 47% of the daily recommended intake of sodium?

So what happens when I eat the whole package of one solid ramen noodle block + too much flavouring?

94% in one sitting? My oh my.

Maybe I should stop walking around so much so that my feet will not swell and drink some water so that my kidneys don't shrivel up and die before I do.

Why, why, why is everything so evil so good??

my poor peepers

Just a moment ago I witnessed my computer screen elongate in a dramatic fashion before my very eyes. I thought that it was some virus attacking my dearly...beloved...Presario that made screens stretch or distort, but no it was my problem. After staring off at other objects around me, I realized that my entire reality looked like a PowerPoint transition.

Spring break meant my eyes being glued constantly to a screen whenever I was at home. Whether that be the television, computer, or even the little solitaire rip-off on my iPod. A pathetic life I lead, no?

Well, my poor eyes are probably crying to me, "Sweetie, all those hours of Project Runway, CSI, Orisinal, Flash Flash Revolution, and Klondike is killing me softly with his song...puhleeazee, just go to sleep!"

I shall probably need glasses soon, to further my nerd appeal. Score!

INTJ

Introverted, intuition, thinking, judging

http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp

That is what Carl Gustav Jung says I am. Truth be told, I am not nearly as skeptical about these personality tests as I should be. What can I say, I am easily persuaded concerning areas where I have less expertise. Particularly since this test seems to have been taken by so many, I had to try it.

The results do not really surprise me, I can categorize the questions myself into what kind of results I would receive. And though I guess this test is pretty accurate based on the answers I gave, I was not too sure about the answers I gave myself. Ideally, I picture myself in a scenario when I answer these. And whichever scenario appears first in my mind would be my initial answer. However if more situations are recollected, I can really swing both ways in many situations.

So much is dependent on the mood I am in. For example, I was pretty annoyed and moody when I first began the test and not soon after I was surprised by a loud bang (something dropped) and a cheerier melody surfaced in my mind and changed the direction of the answers I was giving.

However it did surprise me that the answers I gave were judgemental. I picture myself as a fairly open minded and receptive person, maybe it is just ignorance? Hm.

This brings me to a completely different subject. Is it so bad to be introverted?

Truth be told, perhaps I am being extremely selfish here, but I enjoy being home perfectly alone. I cannot concentrate or do anything productive with my parents or friends around. This is one of the arguments behind a new sleeping pattern I have adopted.

After school, I eat, shower, check emails, and etc. then I sleep immediately afterwards. This usually no later than 8 or 9 in the evening. Then I wake myself with my trusty mobile phone alarm and work in the wee hours of the morning, around 2-3AM; hence the reason for the 4AM post of this (the blogger timer lies). Though ironically, the mere fact that I am blogging at all at this hour is probably further proof that I cannot concentrate in any circumstance to begin with. Tsk tsk tsk, I have so many issues.

I guess one of the main problems of this is that, I am disassociating myself with prime teenage socializing hours. Though it is not nearly as devastating as some adolescents make it to be. MSN or Facebook is not nearly as important as some make it to be.

Man, this blog is becoming a quagmire for narcism

Achievement...?

There is something oddly addicting about achievement, or rather having achievement. Seems to me that it is in human nature to want to achieve more once there is some achievement, but to not to want to achieve anything when nothing is achieved.

Yes, let me explain.

Have you ever just had one of those days when everything should be going so right and so perfectly, that the smallest errors of the world that drives you insane. That is such a strong component of my character, it disturbs me to admit. When I find myself having such success and well being, is rarely is as satisfactory as it seems. So then what? I seek for more! More perfection, more success and more overachieving! In fact, overachieving? No such thing! It is preposterous that I could ever overachieve.

Impossible you say? Well let me tell you, it is possible when one never has expectations for oneself to begin with. People say hope is all we have, ever since the days of ancient Greek mythology's Pandora. But no, I find it not so. When an expectation is achieved, it was expected. A brief feeling of credibility may dash through our moods, but never full satisfaction. However even more likely, disappointment is the outcome from having expectations. So for myself, someone with little to no conscious expectations of myself achieves something, I want more. Why did I not achieve more than I did? Was that my best capacity?

How hypocritical, I expect too much from myself subconsciously.

The more deadly spiral is when nothing is achieved. The hardest thing to do is perhaps to consciously expect something from oneself. Perhaps it is a matter of pride, but why try something that just seems so far away. Though it may not actually be, why try when it seems so?

It is the easiest thing to fall into greed, perhaps even more so into sloth. Sometimes all my complaints in life can be categorized by the seven cardinal sins. Always been a sucker for neo-classical things. Hm, maybe that's the structuralist in me talking. Thank you Ms. Roach.

Puppets

Here is a problem that I feel should be addressed, why are all my fellow classmates so set against using puppets shows for presentations? Particularly in classes such as English, French or TOK. Even those science presentations from grade nine and such could have used puppets. It cuts down on the face time, memorization time, and the cute factor is always a plus.

So why why why are they so anti-puppets?Sock puppets melt hearts and they take a minute to put together!

All you need is some voice animation, and practically an instant 7 (I.B. rubrick) on creativity. (Not that we ever get graded on that...) Nonetheless, what is with all this snobbery against puppetry in schools???

By the way, I am aware that this is a rather meaningless subject to some, but this is one of my most dire questions concerning high school culture.